the lost days of summer

lost days of summeronce upon a time, summer was a vacation, days at the pool, weekend escapes to the lake and lazy days on the hammock. time was occupied by sun bathing, adventuring with friends and picking what movies we were going to rent (these also happen to be the days of blockbuster and hollywood video) now there are mounds of responsibilities and netflix. summer as i once knew it has officially come to an end. i miss the old days.

is it just me, or does summer just get shorter every year? the festivities of the season turn into a whirlwind and suddenly it is fall, the bbq’s come to an end and it’s time to start planning my halloween costume. where does the time go? to say the the past few months have been busy would be an understatement, relocating my life to LA made for an insane summer and 2013 is official a year for the books. from fourth of july shindigs to getting settled in california, i haven’t had much time to relax poolside. my life has been a big mess of boxes, packing tape, goodbyes and a freakishly long drive… suddenly, here i am, i am starting my new actor life in LALAland, where everyone is beautiful and the smog is thick. needless to say, it is going to be one heck of a journey!



jumping cousisn






heart smores


public service announcement


i went on vacation without a camera. that is crazy for anyone and absolutely crazy for me. i am that girl who has thousands of photos. photos on my computer, boxes and boxes of prints, stacks of polaroids, miles of 35mm negatives and pounds cd’s full of images all there to inspire me, remind me, and to tell a story. i adore photography. i scrapbook and i love it. i minored in photo in college and nearly lived in the darkroom. this laps in sanity was most defiantly a distress signal meant to snap me out of a funk. what the heck happened? how did i get on a plane for a wedding in carmel, california without a single camera? how have i abandoned my hobby? i blame my smartphone. on the up side, thank goodness for iPhone cameras in a time of crisis, however the convenience of my smartphone means that i have neglected my lovely cameras and in turn, abandoned one of my favorite creative outlets. together, we must break cycle of iPhone photos and our addiction to instagram filters, it is time to reintroduce the richness of film and the vibrancy of high-quality images into our lives.


firstdance^^^they couldn’t be any more adorable

sheep^^^and the sheep… oh my gosh, loved the sheep!


bigsur2^^^ views (thank you big sur)



the trip was wonderful and the wedding… beautiful. the intimate affair was the perfect setting to spend time with old family friends laughing hysterically over ‘remember when…’ stories while sipping champagne and dancing the night away. it was an ideal weekend with no meetings, agenda or to-do’s, oh how i wish that vacations were never ending. the sights of big sur and the quaintness of carmel made me want to never go back to the daily grind and for the first time in what seems like years, i was able to enjoy a sunset on the beach. pure heaven. until next time, i have the images on my iPhone to smile about and a pile of memories to add to the tales of ‘remember when…’


macaron meltdown

several years ago, i took my first trip to paris and fell in love with macarons. coming back from my french adventure, i was determined to recreate those little goodies from heaven. i inevitably gave up due to their fickle nature and the fragile emotional state i was constantly left in while left helplessly staring at baking sheet after baking sheet wondering ‘where did i go wrong?!?’ eventually, i surrendered to defeat and closed the macaron chapter in my baking life. however, a couple of weeks ago i was reinvigorated with macaron potential after paying crazy money for all but extraordinary macarons. i began to do some serious research and eventually stumbled upon an amazing blog where a pastry chef demystified the grueling tasks of macaron making and i was positive that this time i was going to be unstoppable. three batches and 9 baking sheets of macarons later i was left with an overwhelming pile of macaron shrapnel, reminding me that i had yet again… failed. pure disappointment!

macaroon meltdown

what began as a nice little project for a day free from work and auditions turned into an obsession. it is no longer about making cute little valentine’s for my friends, this is war. war between me, my oven and the temperament of those dang macarons of deliciousness. i simply strive to come close to the delicate wonderfulness of ladurée macarons and i will succeed come what may. if you have never had a perfectly crafted macaron you may think i am letting my dramatic nature consume me, but let me tell you, i am not, it is all perfectly reasonable. this is a quest that i am not taking lightly, and i will proceed until i conquer.


seizing 2013

ten days into the new year and the adventures are already piling up. so far, i have survived turning 25, been at what felt like deaths’ door with the flu and sent off my first contract of 2013 to my agent. however, this is just the beginning and with the year so fresh, it is easy to be optimistic. optimistic about my career, about my resolution, about making this year unforgettable and pushing myself even more as an actor and person. there is just so much to be done and it seems a little more than daunting! now, more than ever, it is the perfect time to up my game. just like any new year, there are ideas about getting fit, nailing more auditions, booking more jobs and making an impact… and i couldn’t be more excited!


i am itching to get going… there is a lot on the horizon and it’s time to seize the day (everyday).


pumpkin wasteland

halloween just might be my favorite holiday! i say might because picking between christmas and halloween is nearly impossible, but if we were to base a winner off of the amount of decorations i had for said holiday… halloween would be the winner, so with that in mind, for now, i will say that halloween is my favorite and luckily for me, the festivities leading up to the actual event have been far from disappointing!

it all began with decorations, lots of wonderfully bewitching decorations…  my favorite being the homemade bleeding candles, i’m very proud of their sophisticated-spooky appeal.

halloween candles

follow decoration with a day at the pumpkin patch and i am giddy with delight! corn maze, pumpkin launch, fresh pressed apple cider, and the hunt for the perfect pumpkin. yay! then there was pumpkin carving, ‘hocus pocus’ (the best halloween movie ever created), toasty pumpkin seeds (from our wonderful pumpkins) hot coco and spooky truffles. heaven!

and to continue on this halloween happiness parade… the future holds so much more! so many amazing halloween-y movies, delicious treats and most exciting, my annual ‘haunting hour’. the event promises to be full of potions and treats sure to thrill and enchant…including a signature cocktail that i am dying to unveil, courtesy of bartender playing boyfriend, of course. gosh i love halloween…bring on the magic and spells!


veggies or bust

recently, i have discovered that there is a serious hole in my life! a hole that can only be filled with brussels sprouts and kale.

it all started when i made a little job change.  i went from the 9-5 deal to the world of evening shifts to pursue the typical hostess by night, actress by day (and all other hours) lifestyle. so, ultimately my schedule is far from normal.  the biggest challenge has become my food consumption.  the sudden lack of veggies and little to no time allotted for cooking is throwing me for a loop.  i get up later now, eat a brunch type thing when i feel like it, have a snack involving a ‘must eat something before work so i don’t pass out’ mindset, usually involving something fast and never including any sort of leafy greens. then i get home, its late and i am too tired to cook, so i throw together yet another snack of unhealthiness…sigh! something needs to change. i am having veggie withdrawals!

the light bulb went off last week when i found myself wandering around portland’s farmers market with a girl friend who put my choice of a gluten free muffin to shame in comparison to her organic apple. suddenly i was jealous of her beautiful, crisp apple, (what is going on here?) i realized that i am making all the wrong foodie choices and depriving myself of yummy goodness. organic and beautiful veggies abound (all at outrageous prices to fit the tree hugging, all-natural trend of portlanders) should be taken advantage of.  i shouldn’t be passing up all of the local wonderful-ness in exchange for a gluten free treat that to be honest, wasn’t all that satisfying.

time to step up my game! i cannot allow the crazy new schedule to win. so, how am i going to do this? buy veggies, use veggies, enjoy the veggies! maybe i will even jump in on this whole juice craze. although i do not plan to live on juice alone, i cannot argue that some green apple, lime, ginger, spinach, kale, parsley, cucumber, and celery liquid concoction won’t do some amazing things for my body, i’m just not willing to give up food in whole form and cheese spreads just yet!

so cheers to healthy deliciousness and making the choice to not eat popcorn and french fries!


summer adventuring

summer has finally graced the northwest with its’ presence… just in time for fall to sweep in and steal the show. with only a handful of sunny days worthy of a sundress, good times must be had and fast before the rain settles in for the next 10 months! so with the sun shining and the “record-breaking” heat, we had ourselves some awesome fun.

first and foremost, any day that involves my polaroid camera is a good day! i love my old school polaroids and film – even if my friends do take to teasing me about how funny it is that i have no idea what digital media is (i DO… i have an iPhone and an instagram account, i just like the real stuff better. one day they will thank me!)

first thing on the agenda… mimosas!

next up, its time for the crawfish festival!

follow it all with a portland style block party and you have a mighty fine summer day! yay summer, yay friends and yay polaroids! without these, life would be much less enjoyable and much less memorable.

thank you portland for some much-needed sunshine and adventures!