i have come to realize over the years that i am a professional auditioner. and even more so, i have realized that acting is all about auditioning and auditioning is all about being a product… one that is to be refined, packaged and marketed expertly. auditioning begins with ‘type’, that translates into how i look and whether or not i fit the role… am i tall enough? too tall? do i need to be more blonde? Brunette? am i skinny enough? have i worked out enough? can i be sexy? can i be nerdy? can i be french? am i too young? too old? do i look like i could be the daughter of the ‘mom’ that was already cast? ugh. it is a miracle that i don’t have a personality disorder.
being an actor is like begging to be back on recess where you are rarely picked to play wall-ball or called over during red-rover (or was that just me???) i have a love/hate relationship with the game of auditioning, it’s recess torture for adults and can be very disappointing at times, yet other times, it is the most rewarding experience imaginable. in the end i have come to realize that fitting the ‘type’ of a role gets you an audition, but it’s talent that gets you the callback. if i get a callback i am doing my job right… this is how i stay sane and positive. it is the key to my auditioning and acting happiness!