the lost days of summer

lost days of summeronce upon a time, summer was a vacation, days at the pool, weekend escapes to the lake and lazy days on the hammock. time was occupied by sun bathing, adventuring with friends and picking what movies we were going to rent (these also happen to be the days of blockbuster and hollywood video) now there are mounds of responsibilities and netflix. summer as i once knew it has officially come to an end. i miss the old days.

is it just me, or does summer just get shorter every year? the festivities of the season turn into a whirlwind and suddenly it is fall, the bbq’s come to an end and it’s time to start planning my halloween costume. where does the time go? to say the the past few months have been busy would be an understatement, relocating my life to LA made for an insane summer and 2013 is official a year for the books. from fourth of july shindigs to getting settled in california, i haven’t had much time to relax poolside. my life has been a big mess of boxes, packing tape, goodbyes and a freakishly long drive… suddenly, here i am, i am starting my new actor life in LALAland, where everyone is beautiful and the smog is thick. needless to say, it is going to be one heck of a journey!



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heart smores


public service announcement


i went on vacation without a camera. that is crazy for anyone and absolutely crazy for me. i am that girl who has thousands of photos. photos on my computer, boxes and boxes of prints, stacks of polaroids, miles of 35mm negatives and pounds cd’s full of images all there to inspire me, remind me, and to tell a story. i adore photography. i scrapbook and i love it. i minored in photo in college and nearly lived in the darkroom. this laps in sanity was most defiantly a distress signal meant to snap me out of a funk. what the heck happened? how did i get on a plane for a wedding in carmel, california without a single camera? how have i abandoned my hobby? i blame my smartphone. on the up side, thank goodness for iPhone cameras in a time of crisis, however the convenience of my smartphone means that i have neglected my lovely cameras and in turn, abandoned one of my favorite creative outlets. together, we must break cycle of iPhone photos and our addiction to instagram filters, it is time to reintroduce the richness of film and the vibrancy of high-quality images into our lives.


firstdance^^^they couldn’t be any more adorable

sheep^^^and the sheep… oh my gosh, loved the sheep!


bigsur2^^^ views (thank you big sur)



the trip was wonderful and the wedding… beautiful. the intimate affair was the perfect setting to spend time with old family friends laughing hysterically over ‘remember when…’ stories while sipping champagne and dancing the night away. it was an ideal weekend with no meetings, agenda or to-do’s, oh how i wish that vacations were never ending. the sights of big sur and the quaintness of carmel made me want to never go back to the daily grind and for the first time in what seems like years, i was able to enjoy a sunset on the beach. pure heaven. until next time, i have the images on my iPhone to smile about and a pile of memories to add to the tales of ‘remember when…’


the macarons have landed!

february came with many missions, the most troublesome of them all being the macaron mission. after my last disaster, i set out to conquer these little pastries with all the courage i could muster. with slight hesitation i armed myself with almond four, a ton of egg whites and took a deep breath. let the adventure begin…

let the madness begin

working hard

getting fancy in the kitchenand now, the moment we have all been waiting for. did i? didn’t i? did i??? … i did! success, the macarons have landed. simple, sweet and oh so lovely.  with a subtle taste of rose and a champagne butter cream that is truly to die for, i can honestly say that, although not perfect, they are delightful and definitely classified as french macarons. i am proud of my little baking endeavor. a day well spent if you ask me!

the macarons have landed

macaron photo shoot

now it is time to share these little treats so that i don’t devour them all by myself.


macaron meltdown

several years ago, i took my first trip to paris and fell in love with macarons. coming back from my french adventure, i was determined to recreate those little goodies from heaven. i inevitably gave up due to their fickle nature and the fragile emotional state i was constantly left in while left helplessly staring at baking sheet after baking sheet wondering ‘where did i go wrong?!?’ eventually, i surrendered to defeat and closed the macaron chapter in my baking life. however, a couple of weeks ago i was reinvigorated with macaron potential after paying crazy money for all but extraordinary macarons. i began to do some serious research and eventually stumbled upon an amazing blog where a pastry chef demystified the grueling tasks of macaron making and i was positive that this time i was going to be unstoppable. three batches and 9 baking sheets of macarons later i was left with an overwhelming pile of macaron shrapnel, reminding me that i had yet again… failed. pure disappointment!

macaroon meltdown

what began as a nice little project for a day free from work and auditions turned into an obsession. it is no longer about making cute little valentine’s for my friends, this is war. war between me, my oven and the temperament of those dang macarons of deliciousness. i simply strive to come close to the delicate wonderfulness of ladurée macarons and i will succeed come what may. if you have never had a perfectly crafted macaron you may think i am letting my dramatic nature consume me, but let me tell you, i am not, it is all perfectly reasonable. this is a quest that i am not taking lightly, and i will proceed until i conquer.


i am a professional auditioner

i have come to realize over the years that i am a professional auditioner. and even more so, i have realized that acting is all about auditioning and auditioning is all about being a product… one that is to be refined, packaged and marketed expertly. auditioning begins with ‘type’, that translates into how i look and whether or not i fit the role… am i tall enough? too tall? do i need to be more blonde? Brunette? am i skinny enough? have i worked out enough? can i be sexy? can i be nerdy? can i be french? am i too young? too old? do i look like i could be the daughter of the ‘mom’ that was already cast? ugh. it is a miracle that i don’t have a personality disorder.

being an actor is like begging to be back on recess where you are rarely picked to play wall-ball or called over during red-rover (or was that just me???) i have a love/hate relationship with the game of auditioning, it’s recess torture for adults and can be very disappointing at times, yet other times, it is the most rewarding experience imaginable. in the end i have come to realize that fitting the ‘type’ of a role gets you an audition, but it’s talent that gets you the callback. if i get a callback i am doing my job right… this is how i stay sane and positive. it is the key to my auditioning and acting happiness!


seizing 2013

ten days into the new year and the adventures are already piling up. so far, i have survived turning 25, been at what felt like deaths’ door with the flu and sent off my first contract of 2013 to my agent. however, this is just the beginning and with the year so fresh, it is easy to be optimistic. optimistic about my career, about my resolution, about making this year unforgettable and pushing myself even more as an actor and person. there is just so much to be done and it seems a little more than daunting! now, more than ever, it is the perfect time to up my game. just like any new year, there are ideas about getting fit, nailing more auditions, booking more jobs and making an impact… and i couldn’t be more excited!


i am itching to get going… there is a lot on the horizon and it’s time to seize the day (everyday).


twas the season

awww the holidays, oh how i love them. mostly i just love the family traditions that i hold on to a little too tightly, in the end i thank my family for putting up with my complaints about needing things to be done a certain way and grumbling under my breath (or not so under my breath) about how things should and need to be done perfectly. what can i say?? i like certain things to remain the same… it is tradition for goodness sakes! so this year, as it has been done in many years past, we cut down the ‘big tree’ along with my mini apartment tree at thornton’s treeland. these trees must past a rigorous test of height, color, shape, fullness and personality, the hunt is not an easy one and i am sure that my parents want to strangle me by the end of it all. as always though, we found our perfect little trees worthy of christmas. although the trees passed with flying colors this year i ended up in tears away… the ‘big tree’, all decorated with perfection decided to misbehave … the darn thing fell over. terrible! all in all it wasn’t all that horrific, but my dramatics kicked in and i was just sure that christmas had been ruined! there were some fatalities but the majority of the little ornaments put up a good fight and christmas was once again wonderful and as it should be.treeland copy




the holiday proceeded wonderfully! at my parent’s house, the live tree for the parlor (to be planted later) was cute as a button with it’s vintage rustic feel, while the ‘big tree’ in the family room glittered with silver and purple. meanwhile, my little portland apartment was not without decoration, a sweet little tree full of silver and white along with decorations of  holly, greenery and paperwhites have filled my little space for the holidays. i am in love with my little apartment and even more so at christmas time! the holiday itself came too quickly and i wish that time could be reversed so i could enjoy the season once more. christmas eve and christmas day were full of joy and warmth as i spent them with the people that i love.





christmas morning

skooby eating santa hat

polaroid with tree

in the end, the holidays for me are all about spending time with family and friends, great food and a cozy atmosphere. christmas of 2012 was lovely and i am sad to have it in the past.  however there is a new year to look forward to and although i am uncertain with all the the change that is in the air, i know that 2013 is going to be a great year full of even more opportunities to grow and to pursue my dreams!

thoughtful thoughts for the holidays

if you are an actor, a model or anyone who ends up on a set from time to time, you know that christmas always shows up well before december and that can be a little confusing, christmas music before halloween??? it’s just not right! you would think that with all of the early auditions and jobs full of holiday cheer i would be ready for christmas this year… wrong! somehow despite all of the early festivities and holiday decor on set, it snuck up on me and i can’t help but wonder ‘how is it already the holiday season again?’ i swear that it was just a couple of months ago that i was celebrating last christmas and plotting ways to avoid the surprise of a new year the next go-round. i vowed that i wouldn’t by taken by surprise yet again, i wouldn’t let december sneak up on me this year, unfortunately i failed. i think that i need to start adjusting my goals and timeline to fit such a whirlwind of a year. every new year the mental list of to do’s is complied and by the time december rolls around i think ‘what the heck?!? where did the time go?’ it is impossible to keep up and to cross everything off of my ambitious list. it’s a vicious 12 month cycle that is nearly impossible to keep up with… but if i don’t run around like a crazy person chasing my goals and dreams someone else will snag my opportunities and that sounds down right terrible. so i continue to make my lofty plans every new year and then pull my hair out during the next holiday season wondering what happened to the many months that i had ahead of me.

this past year has been nothing short of a roller-coaster and with a few more weeks to go anything is possible! i am happy to report that it seems like all of the dry spells were evened out by personal mile-markers and successes making this year one that i am really proud to look back on. from here, i have no where to go but up, right?? cheers to the holidays and a wonderful year to be proud of!



the ‘haunting hour’

*disclaimer: i apologize for the tardiness of this blog post, but better late than never… right?

i love hosting… dinner parties, game nights, cocktail hours, holiday events… i love it all.  however my tiny studio apartment has its limits so i my little soirees are on a mini scale for the time being, mini but mighty i would like to add! and my little halloween shindig was nothing short of mighty.

fondue spread, homemade caramel apples, a signature spooky cocktail, halloween decor, haunted serving dishes, game playing (and conquering), and lots-o wine! i would like to think that it was a success.

this halloween was definitely on the more subtle side of things in comparison to years past, and surprisingly, i was ok with that. the extent of my costume was some black and white stripped stockings, a witches hat and a black dress granting me the ability to say that i did in fact dress up while staying as minimal as possible (i wouldn’t have been able to live with myself if i hadn’t dressed up). this year, the focus was less on the costume and more on that atmosphere, a good time with my favorite people and a shmorgishborg of treats and potions all culminating in a great time and endless laughs.

i would like to think that all levels of the ‘haunting hour’ were equally memorable, however the game playing might have taken the cake this time. it was a scream! a little known fact about me is that when it comes to game playing, excluding most main stream sports, i am beyond competitive. i like to win, i really like to win, it’s kinda a problem!  so when we broke out our rendition of the game ‘celebrity’ (a game that i am now officially obsessed with) it was ‘go time’. after much yelling, hand wringing and fast talking, i am proud to say that my team won, giving me the right to break out my dance moves and boast about our mad skills… maybe i should work on my sportsmanship?? let my guests win one of these days??? hmmmm? anyway, games are the perfect party entertainment and i pity anyone who doesn’t share my love for them, that is the moral of my story. plus actors and games go together like eggs and bacon, it’s a fact!

happy halloween y’all! bring on the rest of the holiday season…


pumpkin wasteland

halloween just might be my favorite holiday! i say might because picking between christmas and halloween is nearly impossible, but if we were to base a winner off of the amount of decorations i had for said holiday… halloween would be the winner, so with that in mind, for now, i will say that halloween is my favorite and luckily for me, the festivities leading up to the actual event have been far from disappointing!

it all began with decorations, lots of wonderfully bewitching decorations…  my favorite being the homemade bleeding candles, i’m very proud of their sophisticated-spooky appeal.

halloween candles

follow decoration with a day at the pumpkin patch and i am giddy with delight! corn maze, pumpkin launch, fresh pressed apple cider, and the hunt for the perfect pumpkin. yay! then there was pumpkin carving, ‘hocus pocus’ (the best halloween movie ever created), toasty pumpkin seeds (from our wonderful pumpkins) hot coco and spooky truffles. heaven!

and to continue on this halloween happiness parade… the future holds so much more! so many amazing halloween-y movies, delicious treats and most exciting, my annual ‘haunting hour’. the event promises to be full of potions and treats sure to thrill and enchant…including a signature cocktail that i am dying to unveil, courtesy of bartender playing boyfriend, of course. gosh i love halloween…bring on the magic and spells!